He shocked Mendelssohn, and even
Wagner, by his irreligion. (See Berlioz's letter to Wagner, 10
September, 1855.)]
[Footnote 39: _Les Grotesques de la Musique_, pp. 295-6.]
[Footnote 40: Letter to the Abbe Girod. See Hippeau, _Berlioz intime_,
p. 434.]
"You make me laugh with your old words about a mission to fulfil.
What a missionary! But there is in me an inexplicable mechanism
which works in spite of all arguments; and I let it work because I
cannot stop it. What disgusts me most is the certainty that beauty
does not exist for the majority of these human monkeys."[41]
"The unsolvable enigma of the world, the existence of evil and
pain, the fierce madness of mankind, and the stupid cruelty that it
inflicts hourly and everywhere on the most inoffensive beings and
on itself--all this has reduced me to the state of unhappy and
forlorn resignation of a scorpion surrounded by live coals. The
most I can do is not to wound myself with my own dart."[42]
"I am in my sixty-first year; and I have no more hopes or illusions
or aspirations. I am alone; and my contempt for the stupidity and
dishonesty of men, and my hatred for their wicked cruelty, are at
their height.
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